We are pleased to bring you this transcription preview from "Live From NYC" with Shakti Gawain. Shakti has facilitated thousands of individuals in developing greater awareness, balance and wholeness in their lives. She has written numerous books considered classics in her field. Her distinguished publishing history includes best sellers Creative Visualization, Living in the Light, The Path of Transformation, Four Levels of Healing, Creating True Prosperity, and Developing Intuition.
I was brought up in a very intellectual, rational, non-spiritual family. We were atheists, in fact. My belief up until I was probably 20 years old, my belief was that God was something that people made up to make themselves feel better, you know, because they couldn't face reality or something. And so I had no real sense of the spiritual connection. But I've always been curious about what makes the world work, you know, and what's going on here? I was a seeker, I wanted to understand.
And in fact, when I was 13 years old I had an experience that was very powerful for me. I had kind of a crisis, it was an emotional crisis, you know? And I began to see that, you know, life isn't what it's cracked up to be here. All these things that are supposed to be so important, and so meaningful, I started to see that they really aren't going to make me happy. And that it's all very . . . something could make you happy and then it could be taken away from you and you'll be unhappy. And I came to a very kind of existential depression where I said, "Life is meaningless," and I was ready to kill myself because I just couldn't understand what the meaning could be. It seemed so pointless.
And that took me, it's kind of a place that I think everybody has to go through, one place or another of beginning to realize that all this world out here that we had thought was so important is an illusion. The importance of the way we thought of that was an illusion and there must be something more. That's really what it started to put me in touch with, and I so started to seek, "What is the 'more'? There must be something more."